Let’s just be honest Jesus I’m a mess
Can’t seem to fill this void of emptiness
My bills are paid but I’m still stressed
I need You I need You
Trying to medicate in all the pain
Can’t push these voices in my brain
Singin’ songs of silence sounds of shame
I need You I need You
But if I tell the truth I’m so afraid of truth
But I know it and You know it
I know I need to pray
But I don’t know to say
I’m not ready
I’m not ready to change
I want to trust in You
But if I tell the truth
I’m not ready
I’m not ready to change
Stuck in between what was and what could be
I’m so afraid to loose the image they see
I don’t even know what’s happenin’ to me
I need You I need You
But when I face the facts my feelings are at facts
And I know it, yes I know it
I know I need to pray
But I don’t know to say
I’m not ready
I’m not ready to change
I want to trust in You
But if I tell the truth
I’m not ready
I’m not ready to change
Sometimes I feel like I, like I got it hard
I just don’t why You stay with me
‘Cause my faith and my trust are waverin’, waverin’
Maybe You saw my pride
It’s hard to surrender when I’ve been pretendin’
To have it together
But I feel like my world is fallin’ apart
Just leave a minute
Just a second to catch up
I know I’m not finished
I just can’t seem to get up
Help me remember all the plans that we made
When we were both on the same page
On the same page
I know I need to pray
But I don’t know to say
I’m not ready
I’m not ready to change
I want to trust in You
But if I tell the truth
I’m not ready
I’m not ready to change